Wednesday, March 28, 2012


Last night my father in law said to me...ever think about all you could do with your life if you weren't doing this...he was mocking me at my iPad, actually at this exact time I was messaging a friend who is going through a hard time with her life right now and I can totally relate!
I immediately said I do a lot with my life....he knew I was about to get really angry so he tried to play it off like he was joking and walked away.

I know I shouldn't even care, and he's just a jerk but it really pissed me off. I guess being a wife and raising 7 children doesn't count for much! Normally I would have an easier time shaking this off, but I'm going through a bit of a crisis lately. I've been struggling with the whole mommy thing and my self worth. I've been fighting feelings of why bother? What difference does it make? Not to mention I have not lost much weight since the twins, I feel fat as hell, old and frumpy. It certainly doesn't help to have people come in to my home insult me and my life! 
My mother in law was like oh you look so tired, are you tired? Are you ok? I'm like no more than usual. While in my head I'm like thanks a lot for telling me I look like shit! I even showered, had real clothes and make up on!!!!!!!

It's times like this that I have to dig deep, look at my beautiful babes and say, they are worth it, even if I'm not feeling it. They need me. They all need a mom who is here for them. So I'm trying my best to shake it off and move on.....


  1. Hey lady! What a jerk! I, too, had been struggling with my self worth for quite some time! I wanted to be Andrea and not just Mommy. I don't normally share links but I wrote about this. Here's the link:

    The answer to that question for me is my blog. For you maybe it is your facebook page. Good grief sister, you have almost 2000 people reading your stuff! By sharing what you find on the internet, you inspire people, you provide laughter, you provide friendship. You are real and I love it!

    In conclusion, eff him and his snarky comments. You provide so much with that IPAD! He has no idea :) xoxoxo

  2. Thank you! You made me smile. I will read your blog....

  3. You're an inspiration for me! I only have one child- a 6 month old little girl- and I feel overwhelmed! I can't imagine having seven, having an awesome FB page :), and doing this blog, while taking care of them! There are weeks if I'm lucky to get out of my pajamas.. except to shower, and then get into another pair. I went from married, hot wife, who always did her make-up and hair, to, a momma covered in drool, food, and hair in a ponytail. Oh, and let's not mention the weight, or the stretch marks. Ugh, I'm lucky if a day comes when I actually feel pretty.
    Anyway, I am babbling. I have just started reading your blog, and let me tell you that you are amazing. If I am half the mother that you are, I will consider myself accomplished. :)

    1. Thanks Leah! I love being a mom. It is overwhelming at times. Enjoy every exhausting demanding minute with your precious baby. It goes so quickly. There is plenty of time to be pretty, and I'm sure you just look like a beautiful mama! :)

  4. Big hugs, lady! Wanna come steal a couple hours in my fantastic garden tub and a glass of wine? I suggest my house that way nobody from yours is banging on the bathroom door for your attention. LOL

    You're awesome. :) Keep being YOU!